A little bit about my cancer so far

So I though I might write a brief little history of my cancer so far. Just in case I have accidentally managed to not tell someone absolutely everything (I don’t over share that much do I???)

So anyway, turns out my family is good at cancer. Two aunts and (I think) all four grandparents died of or with cancer, and numerous others have had or are still dealing with the hideous disease. Oh and two of my sisters have had precancerous growths removed this year.
So it should be something I knew stuff about. But really, no, I knew nothing.

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Today my hair fell out

So yesterday my hair started to fall out. Maybe 100-200 hairs during the day. Today I’ve filled a small bag. I still have over 50% of my hair right now but it looks weirdly flat to me. And it hurts! I never knew it would hurt. I can see that the chemo has melted the follicles away so I guess my hair is just quietly stabbing me in the head. Fun times. 

I don’t want to be bald. But I also don’t want to die of cancer. Bald trumps dying, right? But, man this is not much fun. I’ve had weeks of wondering when will it start? Now that it has, how long will it take? What will I look like? How will I cope with a wig? When will it grow back?  And gosh, I did not expect it to hurt. I found out this week that for my particular chemo drug, there’s actually a real chance my hair won’t ever grow back. Like up to 15%. Let’s just not think about that…

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