And I’m done with chemo!!!!

Last Thursday I had my ‘last’ chemo. Well, my last cycle of the drugs docetaxal and cyclophosphamide that have been knocking me around for the past ten weeks.

And it’s fair to say that I’ve been struggling. You might have noticed a touch of something in my recent posts. Less of the positivity and more of the dark stuff. It’s definitely been a rough ride and while I promised myself I’d keep it honest it has definitely taken a toll.

It isn’t a surprise that I suffered. It isn’t surprising how angry I got. It was (is) a pretty shit experience. I don’t want cancer in my life and I hate chemo. I don’t want my kids to be learning how precious life is already. They should get to stay innocent a while longer.

But equally, I’m not ready to give up.
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Stick to your knitting.

My mum taught me to knit when I was a kid. I remember my first real project was a wine coloured Aran jersey that was way too big, and I cast off too tightly so it could barely fit over my head. I loved that too big jersey but didn’t know how to fix it so I eventually gave it to charity (idiot!).

Apparently I did my sister’s knitting homework (!) for her when I was 10 cos I didn’t want her to get in trouble for refusing to do what she saw as a sexist piece of homework.

Meh I still knit.

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