So yesterday my hair started to fall out. Maybe 100-200 hairs during the day. Today I’ve filled a small bag. I still have over 50% of my hair right now but it looks weirdly flat to me. And it hurts! I never knew it would hurt. I can see that the chemo has melted the follicles away so I guess my hair is just quietly stabbing me in the head. Fun times.
I don’t want to be bald. But I also don’t want to die of cancer. Bald trumps dying, right? But, man this is not much fun. I’ve had weeks of wondering when will it start? Now that it has, how long will it take? What will I look like? How will I cope with a wig? When will it grow back? And gosh, I did not expect it to hurt. I found out this week that for my particular chemo drug, there’s actually a real chance my hair won’t ever grow back. Like up to 15%. Let’s just not think about that…